I wanted to write yesterday, but real life both on and off the net kept getting in the way.  I'm going to have to hit the reset button on putting my own wants and needs a tad ahead of everyone else's.  Lately, I've been a little too swept up in should's and ought to's.  Sadly, my house hasn't gotten totally spotless in this latest round of should's and ought to's.  That is the should and ought to of the day.

Whose arrival am I awaiting? 

Bring on the cabana boy...with drinks.  Remember that point I made a few times about the fact that I don't drink well?  Note the fact that I no longer care that I don't drink well. 

Even though I have found peace with the dog issue, despite it not yet being resolved yet, I am still fairly off-kilter these days.  I've been juggling a number of different situations, plus my kids all lost their minds at once.  All this week, if there are two or more of them in one room, one will be starting trouble with the other one or two.  It's been bedlam and normally, things are pretty peaceful around here.  I think they are still reacting to the tension with the dog thing.  It's been hard for everyone.

I'm watching those sea gulls dripping all over the page and thinking that this week, as in the past 7 days or so, has felt like those birds were busy shitting all over me.  When it rains, it pours.

Don't you think they should have Bacon Flavored Pam Cooking Spray?  There's nothing better than eggs cooked in bacon grease, then you have to dab the damned things for an hour and a half, removing about a half cup of grease and a quarter inch of artery blockage from them before you can eat them, PLUS of course NOW you have to eat the bacon too, so there's more dabbing.  If we can synthesize bacon bits, it shouldn't be a problem to make Bacon Flavored Pam Cooking Spray.

I have had the most bizarre moments of clarity lately, which is odd since I'm not sleeping much and have been kind of foggy.  I don't mean where I hit normal clarity out of fogginess, but super clarity out of fogginess.  It's all been around people and it's like I'm seeing them for the first time or as they truly are.  Some are really beautiful, nearly beatific.  It's funny how we get in our head that the people we know are one way and then we suddenly see them in a whole new light.  Funny enough, I've gotten a hoard (as in 3-4, which I think officially constitutes a hoard, but I'll have to check the hoard statues to be sure) of references to The Emperor's New Clothing in the past couple of weeks.  It's startlingly apropros.  It's shown up in a book, an outdated magazine, a TV show and in conversation with a friend when I didn't mention it first. 

I miss Danny Kaye.

So yeah, it's been strange.  I feel like I've had glasses on that have filtered out certain aspects of people and when they come off now and again, I see them in really startling clarity.  Is this part of the harvest boon?  It's so... interesting.

My bed beckons.  Tomorrow, I will be cleaning, inside and out all day, giving the house a full going over.  My father-in-law, who I have never met (nope, that was Eric's mom and stepfather) is supposed to be visiting from Florida this weekend and I don't want to mess with cleaning while they are here.  Eric is working very long hours and I don't want him to have to deal with any of it.  I'm talking Murphy's Oil Soap on the front deck, moving trash cans, shampooing carpets and furniture, scrubbing the bathroom, cleaning kids' rooms and such.

I've been walking every day on the treadmill, which has helped my energy level (ok, it's true, shut up).  Next, I move to strength training with the resistance tubes and exercise ball (I'm on my 4th thanks to Wicked Nathan and his pointy objects).  I have to empty the shed (eeeep!) and pull out my harvest/Halloween decorations.  I have my big, light up Witch flying over her moon on the front of the house, but everything else is packed away.  Eric had to work late and missed his appointment with the homeschool teacher, so we have no assignments yet and I want to make good use of the time.  Wonder what I will have accomplished by this time tomorrow!  Wish me luck!

So I won't likely be around much tomorrow and maybe into Friday.  Talk amongst yourselves and don't forget to send that cabana boy around.

Love,
K