December 1, 2003
Today is much brighter than yesterday, thank
goodness. I guess I just needed a day to
re-explore that that part of my past and I have to
say, having all of that vented out really helped.
No bad dreams last night. It was also great to
hear from people dealing with some of the same
issues. Evolution is challenging, that's for
I said, I feel much better today and I'm ready to
tackle the task at hand. By it being December
1st, it's definitely carpe diem mode on Christmas.
I have to seize the day and find a way to make this
happen. I've been praying and lighting candles
and such and now we're getting into the home
stretch, so it's time to get aggressive on the
search for miracles. Eric doesn't have any
leads on jobs, so it looks like he's going to be
left with the side jobs that have been coming to
him. I pretty much sold off everything I could
last year when things were bad, anything of any
the plan is to piece together a cool Christmas the
way my mother used to, by the skin of her teeth.
I've been bidding on e-bay for the things the kids
are asking for and of course, I keep getting outbid.
>:< The main thing I have to come up with is a
Nintendo Game Cube and a few games for it.
Anything else comes easily.
I've long been a thrift shop Christmas mom.
For the most part, my kids never knew that a lot of
their gifts were pre-owned. I've been pretty
thrifty in my time. :)
calla lilies are doing very well. I have one
in ratty bloom, one doing better down deep in the
leaves and two more blooms coming. Those are
my little miracles waiting to happen!
I'm also going to be working on a Christmas for the
daughters of Josh's girlfriend. They are 2 and
3, so that's something I can do in my sleep and on
$10-20. Delena has gotten easy lately.
She's really into girly stuff like nail polish and
lip gloss and such. I am fully dedicated to
making this happen on our shoestring budget!
friend of mine recently said, "There is nothing holy
in poverty." I've got to give it to Artie.
He has definitely got a way with words! It
might be holy to be graceful in any difficult
situation, including poverty, but just poverty
itself, I have determined, is totally without merit.
I'm well prepared to leave it!
big concern is getting enough money into our EOS
account to pay for our site expenses because lord
knows I can't make it up this month.
Tomorrow, I tackle the electric bill (yikes!) and
the phone bill. One challenge at a time, one
victory at a time.
enough of that. I don't want to talk about
being poor any more.
got a dentist appointment this week! I'll bet
you never thought you'd hear me say that with
enthusiasm. Sadly, they do not use nitrous (),
so I'll have to rough it. As far as I know,
they are going to give me a good cleaning, then
either schedule out (tell me about it) the repair or
do it then if they have time. I was so excited
to finally get through to the new doctor's office.
I about melted when the front office staff spoke
intelligible English. Ahhh. So around
3pm on Thursday, y'all be sending me lots of good,
calming, healing energy because I'm going to be
freaking out like a big dog.
Not much else is going on. As soon as Eric
finishes meditation, I'm going to hit the sheets and
go to snoozeville.
hope your week started well and your weekend was
wonderful. I'm eager for the rains that come
with Sacramento winters. To me, they are
always so cleansing and purifying. We had nice
drizzles yesterday and today, but I want some real
storms to blow all this mess away (it'd better just
be good to my calla lilies!!)