April 26, 2004
April is almost gone. May 3rd is when we have to come up
with the money for the closing costs on the house. Tra
la. St Jude candle is burning brightly and Mercury goes
out of direct on April 30th, so all things are possible.
That one, poor little calla lily is still trying hard to
bloom. A week from today will tell the tale. It's
quite a set back that Tim Lewis Homes isn't honoring their
agreement to pay Eric and Mike upon 80% completion of the
model homes. Their reasoning is OK, but that doesn't
change that they made an oral agreement (two separate agents)
with the guys and defaulted on it. I was urging Eric to
press a bit further, let them know that they aren't happy with
the precedent being set that any agreements made by anyone
other than the owner are automatically suspect, but he was
adamant that they need to smile and nod and not rock the boat
(NOT my usual comfort zone in issues that could cause me to
lose my house). They would have gotten paid just in
time. Now it will be 2-3 weeks from now instead.
We still have a couple of options to explore, inroads for
miracles as it is, and I'm sure others will manifest.
I'm trying not to focus on it. Worry won't help, but I
can at least stay alert for ideas as they come up. I'm
not in much of a position to do anything about it from here
except hold out good wishes!
I can't and
won't believe I've been brought this far to lose this house
now! There will be a way. I just don't see it just
yet. I also can't see air, but it helps me every day.
Lots of things I can't see help me. ;o)
The weekend was
such a challenge. On Friday, my sweet son, David, came
up. He watched the kids while Eric and I went out to
K-mart and Albertsons (groceries) to pick up a few things.
I got sick all the way there and all the way back. It
sucked. David stayed the night and I made fried chicken
for him for an early lunch. Delena and I took him back.
Eric insisted I was full of crap and it was only an hour to
Sacramento. An hour and forty minutes later, I was in
Sacramento. Delena got sick, but I didn't. (The
Bonine worked for me, but it's EXPENSIVE!) We went to
the shower, stopped by and saw Josh (my son) at his work (it
was GREAT to see him; he and the girls should be visiting at
the end of the week), grabbed a pizza (I had coupons!), then
went up the hill again. When I hit Diamond Springs, I
thought about getting gas, but looked and saw that I had a
solid quarter tank... more than enough to get home and back
down for more gas. I pressed on. Just past the
Grizzly Park sign, the car died. Absolutely would not
move further. After many tries and realizing dark was
coming quickly, I backed the car into a big rut (the only
place off the road to ease it into; everything else was just
road) and Delena and I started walking (I brought the pizza to
feed the kids). I had no clue how far it was to the
house and wished I'd paid more attention when Eric had been
driving. The car was parked just around a curve, so I
did some protection work on it to keep anyone from plowing
into it. I didn't leave on the emergency blinkers
because it looked like the battery was drained from me trying
to start it. ...and so we walked. Delena knew the
way pretty well from riding the bus. I knew the basics,
but lord, it was alllll uphill. I thought I was going to
die. We got home just as darkness was really hitting, a
few minutes after 8pm. Eric later clocked it and said it
was only a mile and a half. It really felt like more.
He walked back to get the car and his friend met him there
with gas. All was well. As it turns out, when the
gauge says "1/4 tank," what it really means is "out of gas."
Hmmm. I would have liked to have known that in advance.
All I knew was that Eric had gotten stranded once right after
we got the car and thought the car had more gas in it than it
did. I thought he meant it just wasn't all the way on E.
Guess I should have listened more. When I got home
(walking), Eric had the house very, very pristine clean and
Yesterday was a
bit better. Eric and I had productive fights (sometimes,
you've just got to cry your way through it to get to the other
side) and all was well by the afternoon. He took the
kids to the river to play and I rearranged the storage shed to
afford walking room. Today, I have to clean house (meh,
I let it go yesterday while I did the shed) and unpack the
rest of my Witchy stuff into the shed. I had a whole
closet of circle decorations and candle holders and extra
candles and stuff like that. When I saw that the storage
shed had cupboards and shelves in it, I knew instantly what
would go there! The biggest challenge will be finding a
place to store my herbs. I have over 250 different ones
and they're in little bottles, so I've got to figure that one
out. I have some small shelves that I can nail up to put
some on. Yesterday, I was able (I surprised myself,
physically) get a LOT of the lighter stuff up into the rafters
of the storage area and consolidate boxes until there is now
walking room in there. The storage shed has two separate
This is door
into the area with the shelves and cupboards. Right
where the roof dips down and the door opens, there is a
makeshift wall of plywood that separates out another room,
entered from the right side of the building. I was
really hoping that we could limit storage to the side on the
right and leave the cupboarded part just for my Witchy stuff.
I love having one room where I can go be with all my crap and
feel magickal. Bleed into the Witchy side it did and
when I went in there yesterday, it was difficult to even walk
in at all (as in "get through"). It's much better now
and all that's left is the unpacking of the goodies and herbs.
I had hoped to have a little work bench area for my mortar and
pestal, etc, but for now, it's not to be. Ultimately,
I'll have a different storage area and will take down that
plywood wall. Then, the little barn storage area is
MINE. But that's a ways away. One of the luxuries
of (soon) owning this place is that I have time to make those
things happen. You can't see it in this picture... wait,
lemme get another one:
Look at the really wonderful pie wedge window in the arch of
the roof! The most wonderful sunlight comes through
I am eager for
it to be my Special Mom Place.
I don't know if
I mentioned this before (forgive me if I did), but after being
divorced for 7 years, Paul and I are actually both buying our
first homes in the exact same month. I mean, isn't
buying a house a rather rare thing to do in one's life for
most people? I found it odd that our lives paralleled
suspect that mine is cooler, but that he paid considerably
I found a
really great deal on ham shanks and got a giant one for dinner
tonight! Not sure what I'll make to go with it, but it
will last us for several meals. I've been surprised by
the distance we've gotten out of meals lately. A week
ago Saturday, we grilled chicken. I boiled down the
leftovers and used some for BBQ sandwiches and the rest for a
yummy pot pie. I like getting distance out of food!
So often, it seems like we're going through it way too fast.
marvelous house warming gift box, my friend, Maurine, sent a
package of No Pudge No
Fat Brownies. Delena made them yesterday and
they were sooo yummy. Not quite as good as the
Garcia's Low Carb Corn Chips, but that's a tough act to
follow. :) I'm so totally going to order a case of
those chips when I have monies. Mmmm.
Speaking of low
carb, I'm looking at Goddess saying, "OK, I CAN TAKE A HINT
ALREADY!!" I guess I was getting a bit of a beating on
the exercise issue with the car dumping me off a couple of
miles from home, so I'm back on the ball again, literally.
Starting today, I'm very low carbing (no sugar, no refined
flour products, whole foods only), lots of water (I'll bet you
you'd hear me say it, but the water up here is so good!) and
yes, exercise. I'll be using the exercise bike, the
resistance tubes and the exercise ball. Today, I'm
starting with a nice few days of Ultimate Cleanse. It's
a product by Nature's Secret that is one of the most effective
internal cleansers on the market. I get mine from GNC
and it lasts about a year. Every few months, I'll do a
cycle of it. There are two components, one is Multi-Herb
and it draws out impurities from the body and deposits them in
the intestines. The next one is Multi-Fiber that cleans
out the bowel and washes it all away. What I like is that it
doesn't give you diarrhea. I take one of each in the
morning and one of each at night for about 5 days and by then,
I can really feel the difference. Gooood stuff!
I'm also on heavy salads (which is helped by the warming
weather - I hate eating salads in winter) and very lean
proteins. This time, I'm going to really do this.
Haven't we heard that before? I've been improving along
the way for a year now and it's finally time to switch into
I'm in a
situation where I'm being asked to perform at a higher level
in many areas. I'm having to keep the house cleaner
(since this house is much more high maintenance than the other
ones I've had. I'm having to work harder to produce good
meals for the family since the kitchen is so small and
inconvenient. I'm having to come up with better rituals
since the people have to travel so far. Don't want them
to be disappointed! Everything from making my own ice to
doing laundry every day seems to be a step toward working in a
higher gear. I guess adding exercise to all of that can
just carry it along with the flow. (You'll notice I'm
ignoring the four-year-old in me that is screaming, "But I
don't WANNA!" at all of these things)
which, it's definitely time for me to get busy. I hope
you all have a stunning week.
The realtor just called and said that the closing on the
escrow might get pushed out a day or two. I can deal
with that! A few days leaves more room for miracles to
elbow their way in!
Take care all,
think I kind of like this webset. Maybe I'll use it for
a while instead of just once!