March 26, 2004
Into the seemingly never ending chain of days where "we should know something definitive today," I forge another link. The good news is that regardless, we should be moving into THE house next week and in place by the first (no more rent here, no more looky-loo real estate clients!). The questions is whether we are buying or renting and if we are renting, for how long. Our loan agent has secured us a loan for 85% of the cost and he and our real estate agent are working creatively to make that be enough and possibly even get us some cash back on the loan, which we very much need. If the loan issue doesn't work, the sellers are willing to rent to us on lease option or just rent to us. They have two mortgages and just want to get out from under one of them by the first when their next payments are due. So yes, we move next week, which is much of a relief to know. Now, it's just down to specifics.
I want to again thank everyone for their love, support, prayers, well wishes and advice. I don't think I could have made it through without that network of support. Eric accuses me of escaping into the computer to avoid dealing with reality and it's hard to explain to him that I'm using the computer to actually deal with reality.
I also want to thank St Jude and the powers that be (do I sound like I should be thanking the Academy next?) for helping things along. It really was a lost cause and when he popped in via those stickers this week to tell me he was on the case, he wasn't kidding.
Next comes a big thanks to a couple of my staff members who got together and mailed me Wal-Mart gift cards! That is going to help out so much. I think they must have looked into my bank account and saw the moths and dustbunnies blowing around in there and flew to my rescue. Thanks to my friend, Maureen, who really broke her back to get us a loan, even if it didn't work out. Also, Delena's biological dad has been kicking in child support that always hits at the perfect time every month. I've been so focused on actually getting the house, that I neglected to think about getting things like, um, money for the U-haul moving truck, setting up utilities, little stuff like that. Talk about fixated. I'm really frustrated that I didn't much think of that. >:< Anyway, I'm on it now! Eric's very last unemployment check is on its way and will almost cover that homeowners insurance thing I told you about. I'm trusting that it will all work out. The guys have been told a couple of times that they'll be starting the new subdivisions in a week or so, but they haven't gotten an actual date yet. Once they get started on those, they'll get paid in a month or so and from there on out, he'll have regular income, which will be an amazing relief. That tells me that in a matter of a couple of months, we'll have steady income and a steady home. I can hardly wait. It's just the journey there that's sketchy. I have complete faith that it will all work out. St Jude is working overtime for me. To honor that, I actually got this from e-bay:
It was only $4 with postage, so I'll wear it to honor what I've received (or am about to receive).
The real estate agent told me we should know what we're doing in the next day or so, which means we're back to waiting, the difference being that I'm going to be packing while I'm waiting this time! It's going to be odd to drive up to a house that is MINE that I've only seen in photographs. Eric is very savvy about my tastes, so I know he did a fine job and just through the pictures, I can tell the house is my home. It's just a matter of getting there. Now I feel like I could nap nonstop until time to go.
In the meantime, since napping isn't really an option, I found another of these things in a friend's journal, so I'll kill off some time with it.
By the way, if you're still in the Crimson Room, feel free to write for suggestions and I'll talk you through it.
LAYER ONE: The
We were supposed to have someone looking at the house yesterday at 4:30, but like lots of others, they never showed up (who says magic doesn't work?). I don't care who comes after I'm gone. For now, I want my privacy. Eric is working again today, installing a camera at a rock quarry. He's doing work and billing people, it's just slow paying in construction.
Delena is over the moon that this is the last Friday she'll spend at this school. She's very eager to leave and start a new life. Dylan is still a little sad, but seems OK.
So that's where it is. I gotta get geared up for this, get boxes, get money and get going!
This time next week, I should be writing to you from Grizzly Flats! (Provided I can get phone service for internet in time! But hey! There are still callas left to bloom!)
BTW, the new radio station in town (not a new station per se, but a new music format - all 80's music) is having a contest. You can win $10,000 for naming the station. Any ideas? It's 103.9, the...
In CB speak, 10:39 (their FM dial number) means "Your message was received." I was thinking of trying to work from that.
I could really put $10,000 to use. Lord knows I would pay EOS bandwidth costs for a few years. :)
I've worked out hard for a week now... 20 minutes on the exercise bike at 11 mph is hard for me and I didn't think I could do it, but I did. It didn't get any easier, either, surprisingly. Usually, it does after a few days. I watched what I ate and carefully combined and balanced my carbs and proteins. I cheated ONCE, mind you, ONCE and ate a handful of robin eggs. I did it on purpose and with malice of forethought. I made potato skins and only had THREE because that's all that would balance into my healthy diet without tilting the scales.
I gained 10 pounds. I weighed again today in case it was a fluke water gain thing. I'm taking a water pill and drinking extra water just in case. Harrumph.
Isn't that like having a nine pound baby and only losing 4 pounds?
No, I'm not smaller in inches either.
I'm just... me.
This isn't helping my mood.
Happy about my house! Bummer about the weight. >:< Did I sleepwalk and pig out or something? If I'm going to gain 10 pounds, I'd really like to have some conscious fun doing it!
Love & thanks
for the prayers,
your e-mail to me contains the words
"penis" "cock" or "viagra," it's likely
going to be filtered out. I'm
getting a gazillion spams for generic
viagra and penis enlargements and since
Eric isn't interested, I'm getting tired
of reading them and being teased. I
haven't filtered out 'peepee' yet, so that
one's a go if you want to rephrase.