March 22, 2004
Happy, happy Monday and happy
I'm feeling much more relaxed
than I expected to feel today, considering that this is the
week, at least by all appearances, that we will find out
whether or not we can buy The House (yes, it deserves capital
letters). I still have that feeling of peace that comes
from having done all I can do and just needing to wait it out.
I did get a bit of a start
when I realized that I had miscounted and our 17 days into
escrow where we lose our deposit if we don't get the loan is up
on Wednesday, NOT Thursday like I thought. Talk about
yikes! As with so many other things in my life, it's
cutting it down to the line and beyond.
We had a wonderful Spring
Equinox. Even though it was a public ritual, only our
group showed up, as well as one other couple that one of our
gals knows. That's never happened before. We usually
get a minimum of 20 or more extra people, sometimes as many as
50. It's amazing that no one else showed up, but it also
gave me a message I was needing. I told myself that if we
had a lot of people show up, we'd commute to Sacramento to do
the public rituals this year, but if we didn't, we'd do them at
our place. It looks like it will all be going on in the
mountains now! I'm somewhat relieved by that. I'm
really looking forward to being up there, surrounded by peace
and nature. This is a classic case of the Universe knowing
better than I do what I want. I was totally locked into
the idea that I was city girl now and I completely resisted the
idea of moving to a remote area whenever Eric brought it up.
I figured it was that young man "Let's go CAMPING" phase.
Now, I can't imagine staying here and can't wait to get up
there. I'm so very excited about the turn my life is
Eric is working a bit today,
so I'm on my own with Nathan. It almost feels like a
"normal" day, at least what I remember "normal" to be. I
have some cleaning to do and all of the stuff we needed for the
Spring Equinox celebration unloaded from the car when Eric gets
back. Since a lot of our items (tambourine, drums,
pheasant wing, etc) we take with us go on our walls as
decoration, we have bare walls in the living room and there
abouts. I'm debating whether to even bother putting them
back up or if I should just pack them. I haven't bothered
to pack yet or even to start to think about packing. It
seems like it's jinxing the process to do anything before we get
the official word. Having been a military wife for 20+
years, I can pack and move like nobody's business. It's
always nice when "the movers come" and pack up everything,
wrapping each little cup individually and putting 3 items in a
box with 400 papers. About half of my moves, if not more,
have been me wrapping fragiles in my clothes and transporting
stuff in trash bags and laundry baskets. I've had several
good suggestions for boxes, including book stores, McDonalds and
movie theaters. Eric will go out trolling for boxes once
we hear the good word. The kids desperately don't want to
go to school on April 2nd because there's a jog-a-thon scheduled
and I desperately don't want to pay any more rent on this house.
The sooner the better, as far as I'm concerned. I think
everyone in our family feels the same way. The only one
who is sad is Dylan, who has a million friends at school.
He's such a likable kid and on his report card under "teacher
comments" it even says, "Dylan is a great friend." I know
that will help him a lot in the new school, especially coming in
on the tail end of a school year, but it's also sad for him to
lose the friends he has now. He's resigned and eager about
the good stuff. Delena is chomping at the bit to leave.
Nathan is oblivious. It's been explained to him, but he
doesn't really fully understand what's going on. I think
he'll be very excited when he sees the enlarged play area.
He's very much an outside play kid and will probably benefit
more than anyone.
I am feeling the need to
shrine out my house a bit and create a more serene, peaceful
environment. It will also be nice for Eric when he gets
home. David (my son) babysat for me during the Spring
Equinox celebration yesterday and while he was here, he cleaned
Delena's room (madness, I tell you), the patio area and the
boys' room. It was such a treat to come home and find
those things done. If ever a woman needed a lifetime Merry
Maids subscription, it's me. :) First, I'd have the
Queer Eye guys come in and decimate all that's dear to me, THEN
lifetime Merry Maids. Ahhh. I can't dream, can't I?
Last check, there were 22
calla lilies blooming and about 18 more in bud form.
Now I have to go put together
a gossip column when there is no gossip to be had. Talk